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[22 Apr 2005|02:22pm] |
This last entry is just to tell you I'm officially out, I'll check every once in a while for comments and I'll comment back sometimes, but yeah. LJ is so fucking boring.
My xanga is: http://www.xanga.com/home.aspx?user=xBreakxThexSilenceX
Hit me up if you have one and I'll subscribe and shit. Love you guys bye.
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[21 Apr 2005|02:50pm] |
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I quit LJ it's really boring.
To LJ: Xanga owns you, go die.
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[18 Apr 2005|02:19pm] |
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So I'm at practice and I go inside to pee and CASSIDY KISSES ME!
fkjdsahfklsdahfkljdshflkjdshalfkds FUCK YES
It felt amazing...Weird huh?
We have 5 or 6 songs in the works and we're doing a cover of Slayer's Reign In Blood.
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[15 Apr 2005|02:29pm] |
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The plan for this weekend:
Today, Zac and I are going to the movies at 9 with Blake, Cassidy, Kevin, Rachel, Darbster, and Jill. It should be a blast. Hopefully I can see Jordan before then since he'll be in town. I love him and I'm going to marry his sister so we can be related. After the movie, we are supposed to stay the night with Blake. That should be cool, we can write new songs up.
Saturday, we have a practice. It should be super great and I can't wait. I wrote some more lyrics. One about having sex and one about killing someone. Cute, huh!?
Sunday, I guess we'll practice again? And church.
My lyrics sound like Christian lyrics. That's strange.
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[13 Apr 2005|02:24pm] |
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Darkest Hour |
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So I ended up not going to that show. A lot of things happened with the ride, so I was a no-show.
I didn't let that ruin my night... I bought a new game for X-BOX! Yeah, laugh at the NERD. I love it. It's called Marrowind and I'm doing pretty damned good!
Next practice is Friday, I can't wait. It's nice that practice isn't a burden on us. We all really enjoy it. We all go super nuts too.
I think Cassidy and I are going to the movies with Zac and Darby (the new couple of the YEAR). I've grown quite fond of her, but I'd like to take things very slow.
So school is boring, life is alright.
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[11 Apr 2005|02:34pm] |
Practice went very well on Sunday and GASP I held Cassidy's hand. Jeez, she's super cool. She comes to all of our practices. Her and the drummer have been friends since they were in diapers, so we get to chill a lot.
Zac wasn't too close-minded about the songs at all, I was really happy about that. He just didn't like the single reets, but he liked the sliding ones. The breakdowns on that song are pretty slow too, he usually hates slow ones.
I hope to God we play that As Cities Burn show, it would definately pull in a big crowd.
GUESS WHERE I'M GOING TONIGHT!?
BURY YOUR FUCKING DEAD SHOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
That's right be jelous! AND The Red Chord, A Life Once Lost and If Hope Dies will be there too.
Next practice is Tuesday. Can't wait. It should be productive. We have a song with a really cool blast beat section on the first verse that transfers into a two-step section and it's super brutal and fast!
I love you all!
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[09 Apr 2005|12:27pm] |
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So my mom is giving me some slack on me being sick. I get to go to Chris's (drummer for Without Glory) surprise birthday party with Zac. FINALLY, we will have Zac's guitar shit back, so that should be fun to practice with him. He's really picky about his music, even if a breakdown is kinda slow, he shuts it down. So it's hard sometimes.
Speaking of the band, did I mention our first show is going to most likely be with AS CITIES BURN!? holy shit, I cummed myself!
That'll be in late June. We need a 5 song set.
We have one song so far in the 3-4 weeks of practice. It may seem like it's going slow, but songs are hard to write people, c'mon.
So I miss a lot of my old friends. I miss John, Sara, Katie, Teddi, Jordan, ect. AKA the Cornerstone Crew haha. I've been beating myself up lately about stuff. I just keep blaming myself for them not wanting to be with me sometimes. I only get calls from Jordan and John. They're the only ones that really keep in touch. Maybe it's because of my lost faith? It's not something I'm proud of. I wish I had faith. Lately, I've actually felt a pull towards it in some ways.
Anyways, I really miss those people quite a bit. They were like family... Families aren't supposed to part ways...
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[06 Apr 2005|02:28pm] |
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Practice was alright. The next schedualed one is on Friday, but I'll have to miss it due to my mother making me go to Randy's farm with her. I can bring a friend, but c'mon, how unfun would that be!?
Oh well, fuck it.
I'm getting sick of having to sneek online, I'm going to talk to my mom about it.
I'm going to see Bury Your Dead on the 11th. I want merch, so I'm saving up.
I think Gabe, Cassidy and I are going to the movies soon, that should be fun.
FUCKKK
I AM THE BLACKEST INCARNATION
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[05 Apr 2005|02:24pm] |
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Never been happier ever |
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You said so much, without ever parting your lips |
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So we had practice yesterday and DAMN........Holy crap. Our first song is almost done, we have 3 minutes of the song done and the coolest most massive most brutal breakdown on the face of the earth at the end. We all went straight-up NUTS. Something has to be broken.
We used Marcus's mic that time too, so that was nice to be heard. It's an okay mic for what it is.
Tonight we have practice as well, provided my grades are good enough. I need to get my report card next period.
I've been really tired lately. Last night after practice, I fell asleep on the floor with my head propped on a fucking wall. I woke up around 1 AM and got on the bed. My neck still sort of hurts.
I'm using Sharla's iPOD now instead of messing with CD's. It's really convenient because I listen to shit a lot at school.
FUCKING A I CAN'T WAIT FOR PRACTICE. I want to get pics this time. MySpace pics. Yeah. We might record with a tape recorder so everyone can listen to it and perfect everything.
....But I still feel like I'm missing part of myself...
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[04 Apr 2005|07:38am] |
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MY FUCKING MIC IS BROKEN! |
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Mortal Treason |
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So the PMtoday show was cool. No one cleared the pit on The Happy Song so of course, fists flew in people's faces. Maybe if kids weren't so ignorant...
Last night I had practice. It was really cool up untill the end of the song we almost finished. My mic broke. Like not in two, but the godamn piece of fucking shit stopped working! I'm so pissed, I have to find out what's wrong. Hopefully it's just the mic cable or the mic. I wouldn't want to have to get another PA system, that shit is too expensive.
It's sad how alone I feel now... Like I'm starving for affection...
Fuck, I guess that's just life. I'll deal?
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[02 Apr 2005|02:07am] |
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Foreknown |
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The show was pretty cool. Foreknown was AMAZING. It's been a while since a good metalcore band has come to Little Rock. We get all the old school and traditional shit. I'm so burnt out on that shit and it's fucking overrated. However, I am wearing a Terror shirt, but they are still good haha.
Fuckkk, I'm in SUCH a horrid mood. Like just, angry. I feel violent. I feel like I could kill some of the kids in my scene. Don't worry though, I'm totally just blowing smoke right now.
Tommorow, I'm going to chill with Gabe again. I need to get my new jeans hemmed (SP?) sometime. We're going to the PMtoday show... I like the drummer, he's a cool kid.
Sunday I have another practice with the metalcore band. I can't wait. Zac (guitarist) gets back this Monday, so we'll have to teach him everything Kevin and I have written. I hope he had fun in Europe. I miss my neighbor-hood hardcore buddy! Marcus did really great on bass today. He picked up everything SOOOO quickly. I was really impressed and proud of our progress. Kevin and I were talking about maybe playing shows when we get 2 songs done, but that wouldn't be a full set. I think we could get away with it.
Kyle's girlfriend, Sharla, said she would dye my hair black tommorow. I would really like that. I've always wanted to do it, but I'd have to run it by my mother who happens to think everything is of Satan himself. Maybe she will be understanding. I'll clean the house tonight so that'll put her in a great mood tommorow since she isn't home, then I'll be super nice tommorow and maybe even offer to do things around the house. Maybe even tell her that I've been praying for "salvation" haha. Then, SLAM THE QUESTION ON HER! "Mom can Sharla dye my hair black? I think it would definatley go well with the tone of my skin. All the preppy kids are doing it." If I were only THAT good at sucking up.
I feel lonely tonight. Well, I've felt lonely everynight, but for some reason, now, instead of being depressed, I'm just angry about it... CHUGGA CHUGGA LETS KILL THEM ALL CHUGGA CHUG CHUG NEENER! </3
I need you. Come to Hicksville! I promise it's not as bad as you think. Little Rock is nice. I swear.
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[01 Apr 2005|06:34pm] |
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Across Five Aprils |
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Today......Was fucking amazing. I've had a great day so far and to top it off, the Foreknown show is tonight.
Practice went GREAT, minus the fact one guitarist is in fucking Europe (my neighbor, Zac). It's nice to live near a kid that listens to good music.
Anyways. We have this song and I actually SING in it. On the melodic two-step part, I stop screaming to sing. It sounded really good. The breakdown for that song is SO brutal. I feel like we've made progress.
As great as this day has gone, it's still sucks everytime I think about Brit. She called me, it was nice to hear her voice <3. It makes me feel a little more secure.
I've changed for the better. I don't regret a single thing. I'm happy with life, minus the distance. Nothing can stop me now.
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[01 Apr 2005|02:02am] |
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BLEEDING FUCKING THROUGH! |
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So Gabe and I went shopping today. I spent all my money.
I got:
2 pairs of American Eagle jeans
1 pair of American Eagle camo shorts
1 pair of black monochrome old school Vans and....
A fucking Terror shirt
After that we practiced with Brandon. He's a cool dude and he knows a lot of music theory, so our shit should progress. Tommorow I have practice with my real band and it should be funnnnn. But it would be sooooo much better with BRITANI <3
I miss you, see you in April if everything "stays the same". Oh how I wish it would.
I also miss my other Florida niggas. You guys are pretty fun.
So Gabe and I dance with "pirate pants" now. He's my new fashioncore buddy from Cali. He's like an older, more built version of me.
When am I going to lose my godamn baby face!? Shit, I'm like an 18 year old trapped in a 15 year old's body with a 12 year old's face. Jesus, I hate being "cute".
My new word is "FUCKING A!" We almost got "beat up" by some wiggers in the mall. We over heard them contemplating a hook-up and I was trying to help by telling the girl that he wanted a piece of ass. He didn't like it too much when they walked away with disgusted looking faces. TEE fucking HEE.
Sunday I'm going to a local emo show. That's something I promised myself I would never do. The emo scene is SOOO big here. Unlucky for me, the metalcore scene consists of about 7 Conway kids and I. Everyone here is too cool for metalcore, so they listen to old school hardcore and traditional hardcore. Especially the posi edge shit. I like it, but it's SOOOOOOOOOOOOO overrated.
Wow, this was too long. I need a life...
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[30 Mar 2005|11:59pm] |
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Florida: I love you |
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www.purevolume.com/elliott |
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Tonight was really great. Olivia never came, but I'll forgive her since she did my layout WHAT WHAT!? Hell yeah niggas.
We hung out with Courtney. MAN, she's a trip, we had fun.
After Courtney left Britani and I walked around and talked. I also played somebody's accoustic guitar and gave him a dollar. I felt so scene playing accoustic From Autumn To Ashes songs downtown. He played with a leather pick, it was kinda cool and made the string noise sound less harsh.
Britani got me a key-chain that says 'Florida: I love you'. I got her one that said 'Tyler' on it.
I'm going to miss Britani soooooooo much. She means a lot to me.
...AND IT WASN'T BECAUSE OF THE SEX!
Expect an emo moment on the airplane home... Maybe things will work out okay. Maybe. Sometimes it seems like it would take a miracle.
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[30 Mar 2005|05:19pm] |
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So tonight is my last night here. From what I know, we aren't going to church. Instead, we decided to just chill downtown and shit. It should be great, but parting will be HELL.
Earlier today, my dad and I went to the beach and rented some wave runners and tore that shit up. I have sand in my hair and in my toes, but I'm too lazy to shower. My hair is nasty, so I just spiked the back up. We originally got one wave runner, but I kept knocking my dad off. We would get in the wake of really big boats and I tried to back flip and knocked that nigga off! Godamn haha.
I'll be back in LR at about 3. Getting on that plane will be so hard for me. Expect an emo moment haha.
FUCKKKKKKKKKKKKK. I wanna go to the guitar shop today. I need an accoustic guitar.
ILOVEYOUGUYS<3
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| The FL show |
[30 Mar 2005|01:11am] |
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What a HORRID show. Jesus, I'm so glad we left early. I was moreso there just to chill with friends. I saw Brian, Olivia and Mary. I went with Britani there and we left after the second band. I met two of the oldschoool/traditional hardcore kids outside and man, were they complete assholes. They treated everyone like shit. Hardcore hasn't ever been about close-mindedness. They act like we're all ignorant to our history. After that we just walked downtown and talked about issues that needed to be thought about.
Tommorow, I think I'm going to church with Olivia and Britani.
The day after that, I leave. I have a lot going on when I get back home, but I don't know if I'll be able to enjoy it much. I'm going to miss Britani a lot.
Florida has too many hobos. We need to reduce the population. Who's up for some genocide of the homeless? So maybe that was about cruel...Haha
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[30 Mar 2005|12:44am] |
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So, I got an LJ. It's weird, much different than Xanga.... Damn....
Tonight I'm going to some indie/emo/screamo type show with Britani. I think some of my other Florida niggas is gon' be der.
I leave Florida this Thursday so I'll miss Since The Flood. I'll be home around 3-4 if anyone wants to do something. Just call me up.
Friday I have practice, but minus Zac because he's in Europe still. He doesn't get back 'till the 3rd of April. I'm hoping to get Marcus at that practice so we can teach him all of our songs we have written up. He's our bassist.
Saturday I'm going shopping with Gabe and my cousins might tag along with us. After that, Gabe, my cousins and I are going to see PMtoday. I know the drummer, he's one cool dude. I'm gonna dance it up for the Happy Song. I kinda like them the more I listen. Yeah, laugh it up you scene bitches! <3
Sunday, I don't believe I have anything planned. Then monday, I have to go back to school </3.
I'm hoping this band prospers. It sounds really great. Hopefully we can start playing shows as soon as we have a full set. The other members don't want to rush that, but I really can't help it. It's my dream to get this started. I can't wait.
I love everyone of you guys and I miss you guys. Can't wait to see everyone again. <3
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